Ambitious to Zealous


- text finished May 16, 2019E.V.

On April 9, 2019, I premiered my piece entitled "365" at the Regent Square Theater with the assistance of 7 musicians. Afterward, we took our meager earnings from the door & had a collective meal. One of the players asked me if that was the most epic thing I'd ever done & I exclaimed: NO! & mentioned a few other things. I'm 65, going on a thousand, & my energy for large-scale projects is definitely waning, so it occurred to me that "365" might be the last big piece I ever present. I got to thinking about all the large-scale projects I've been a prime-mover in in my life, always non-funded, usually under otherwise bad conditions, & I decided to eventually pick 26 of them to list here under an "A to Z" chronological organization. If I can't think of 26 that qualify I might just have to live long enough & work hard enough to fill in the blanks. A part of my reason for doing this is just to give a big (not-)fuck-you to all those pampered poodles who accomplish so little in their lives but who're always well-paid & over-credited for doing so. Those of us who're truly inspired, original, & motivated will always surpass those of you who're just spoiled, lazy, & derivative.

Then again, even creating these web-pages is a large-scale production in its own right. Thousands of scans would have to be made to do some justice to the tENTATIVELY, a cONVENIENCE aRCHIVE documentation of these projects. I'll start with making the HiTEC page because I recently uploaded almost all of the roughly 79 HiTEC documentaries that I made to my onesownthoughts YouTube channel & the Internet Archive & I made stills from each of them too. Even all that material doesn't cover everything & trying to organize it all is a challenge.



A. 1967 - present: aRCHIVIST

B. 1969 - present: Anarchist

C. Spring, 1975 &/OR 1978 &/OR December, 1980 - present: Neoism

D . September 4, 1977 - present: Publisher

E. Fall, 1978 - present: nuclear brain physics surgery school

F. Fall, 1978 - present: Mike Film

G. January 24, 1979 - September 4, 1981: B.U.T.N.

H. 1981: '81 APT

I. early 1980s - September 18, 1983 - June 29, 1988: B.T.O.U.C.

J. 1983: 3rd Church of the SubGenius Convention -> APT 7

K. Fall, 1989 - Summer, 1994: Normal's

L. April 25, 1990 - May 21, 1994: 'Official' Project

M. 1991: 'Patanational PXL-2000 Festival

N. July, 1996 - March 28, 2009: Triple-S Variety Shows

O. 1997 - present: Websites

P. 1999? - 2005?: 97.9FM: Pittsburgh Pirates, Stealers of the Airwaves

Q. Fall, 2007 - present: Goodreads Reviewer

R. 2003 - February, 2008: Paradigm Shift Knuckle Sandwich & other examples of P.N.T. (Perverse Number Theory)

S. July 14, 2008 - October 30, 2010: HiTEC

T. November 27, 2011 - October 13, 2017: mm

U. February 2, 2016 - present: Endangered Languages, Endangered Cultures, Endangered Ideas

V. May 5, 2012 - May 4, 2019: Soap Box Operas

W. January 1, 2018 - December 31, 2018 - April 7, 2019: 365


Y. March 19, 2020 - September 30, 2020: Unconscious Suffocation - A Personal Journey through the PANDEMIC PANIC

Z. October, 2020 - present: House Expansion







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